We have all the time in the world….do we?

“Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain

You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today

And then one day you find ten years have got behind you

No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun”

Time…..Pink Floyd

 

I remember listening to these words when I was twenty, feeling like they must have been written for someone else, not me, they couldn’t be applicable to me.

Ok, I wasn’t doing the things I expected or wanted to be doing with my life.

Nothing in my life was the way I expected or wanted it to be in fact.

Image result for wasting timeI was frittering and wasting my hours in not only an offhand way, I was in active self destruction mode.

This song could have been written specifically FOR me.

And probably for every other 20 year old.

But of course, when we are 20, we feel that we have all the time in the world.

As we get older, and realise that we don’t, that we may have wasted many years when we could have been doing life so much better, it is easy to become despondent, or to feel that we have to try to do everything to ‘make up for lost time’ and panic, trying to do everything at once.

I sometime lurch between the two, thinking of all the years I could have done better, and all the things I would love to do.

Despondency and panic are not the answer.

My friend Paul Noiles shared on Facebook earlier that we humans live approximately 28000 days in this life.  At 44 years old, and a bit, I have, as of today, lived 16138 days, and have, by this reckoning, 11862 days left.

A sobering thought.

The days are ticking by, and there is SO much I still want to do.

It is easy to think of all those days lived but not really lived, I could get really cross with myself.

But what would be the point?

Would that achieve anything productive?

You’re still breathing aren’t you? You have THIS MOMENT. In this moment, anything is possible.We cannot change the past, we cannot unwaste the days we wasted, we can’t un-age our bodies and make them young again.

We cannot have our past again.

We cannot have our future yet either.  We can never have it in fact, it never actually comes, it is always a promise and an illusion.

All we ever have is now.

So you have let the years slip between your fingers and your life isn’t what you want it to be.

So what?

You’re still breathing aren’t you?

You have THIS MOMENT.

In this moment, anything is possible.

You can make a commitment in this moment that you are going to live each moment, to live a full and meaningful life of moments, and to not waste any more moments.

Stop Ticking Away the Moments

All the amazing things ever created by a human being, began in the present moment with one small action

Is there something that you have always burned to do?

Do you have a dream that you have always wanted to achieve, that you talk about doing all the time, and have done for so long that you don’t quite understand why you haven’t done it yet?

It might feel like it isn’t possible right now, but there will be steps that you can take to begin to bring it to life.

Make some time to sit with this.

Take some deep breaths.  Sit quietly and focus on the breath for 5 or 10 minutes to get in tune with yourself and your intuition, then sit down and just write.

Don’t think about it, just think about that thing you want to do, and ask yourself what it is that you need to know about it.

If you can switch your logical brain off, and just let the words come, you may surprise yourself when you find out what is really holding you back from your dream, when you see the ways you are getting in your way.

You could try asking yourself ‘what can you do right now to start to make this a reality’, and see what flows out of the pen.

You may be astonished when you find out what your subconscious mind has been keeping hidden from you…you have real gems inside you….you just may need to do some digging to find them!

Getting to Know YOU

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If you are new to journaling and self study, you might want to warm yourself up with my 5 day Getting to Know You challenge.  This email course will give you a kick start to self study with questions everyday for you to ponder, sent via email.  You can also join the Recovery Pathfinders Facebook group where you can share your thoughts and a-ha moments with others on the challenge.

To take part in this, and to start to Get to Know YOU, sign up here.  Your first questions will arrive in your inbox at  5.30am GMT the day after you sign up.

I look forward to helping you Get to Know YOU

Time – Pink Floyd

Esther Nagle

After 20 years of alcohol addiction that she couldn’t and wouldn’t acknowledge, Esther was forced to face all her demons at once when she had a breakdown. This led her to Yoga Teacher training, where she learned to bring her demons out, to talk to them, to soothe them, forgive them and loosen their grip on her life. On October 12 2014, she decided she never wanted to feel the pain and shame of a hangover again, and, by living the yoga she was taught, she has been sober ever since. She is now a Yoga teacher, recovery mentor, author and host of the Sober Living Rocks podcast

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